* First of all, I want to tell you that the photographer (who shall remain nameless) missed some of the best parts of our costumes. Let me tell you, my white heels paired with my leggings were like, totally fab. And Daryl's pants were showing off his white sports socks in his black dress shoes. Anyway, glad you all got a kick out of the pics. :-)
* Secondly, and more importantly, I want to have a little honesty here.
It is very easy to write these posts, painting a pretty nice picture of what life is like for us. I even get jealous sometimes when I read other peoples' blogs because of what they did/are doing, etc. You know, it sounds so nice when that's all you hear.
Well, life has not been all peachy around here. Just for the sake of honesty, I'll tell you a few things.
My house is usually a disaster these days. I've been trying to clean my kitchen all week and it's still not clean. I yell at my kids. I cry when my husband walks out the door. This morning was the first time I read my Bible for awhile (except for at Bible study). My bedroom looks like a tornado went through it. My kids fight. They pick their noses and eat their boogers and mouth off to me. I'm tired.
I could go on and on but that's not nice. :-)I am thankful for so many things - my kids and husband included (even though I get mad at all of them). I don't write this to complain; I write this to let you know I'm human. It's been a bit of a rough week, but I think in the midst of it, God is revealing is incredible love for me. I feel it, I know it.
This is pretty scattered writing, but I just felt some honesty was needed here. Wouldn't want you to think we're perfect or anything :-) But let me also tell you, God is good and so is life...most of the time. :-)
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In which I greatly admire your sense of reality...Thanks. Now that I'm home again I can comment...What I admire in you is that you can still take time to laugh and have fun once in awhile. There's a young mom (maybe lots more than just one?) that reads your blogs (she confessed to me just lately) and she really admires both you and Rhonda in your mothering. O.K., so I won't name you,K., but now you know "the rest of the story", eh?:) And to all the moms out there, I want to yell lots of cheers for you to keep on little by little, day by day, teaching, training, consistently modeling what you're trying to get across to those little ones. Don't give up now!!!
Wow - nothing like a good dose of honesty. Thanks for sharing. This probably isn't a good idea, but you know how when you eat way way too much of something, you really loose your appetite for it, pretty much for all eternity... just sayin... cheer up little Robbie poo! Look towards the heaves, so it can rain down your nose.
oops, I mean look towards the heavens. I don't know where the heaves are for you to look at unless one of your kids is really sick.
One day your kitchen will be spotless and organized, your bedroom will be clean, the bed will be made, the laundry all washed and put away, but the kids will be gone. And they won't still be picking their noses, lipping off, or fighting (for the most part) when they are around. So enjoy them and hold on to them while you can. I know it's easy to say.... it's just what I keep telling myself. Lately, one of the portions of scripture I've been meditating on and trying to live out is this:
Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain.
And every man that striveth for the mastery is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a corruptible crown; but we an incorruptible. 1 Cor. 9:24-25
I am trying to think like and act like a gold medal athlete who wants to "win" in my walk with the Lord.... temperate in all things. That includes how I spend my time, how I react/act with my kids, everything. I'm a work in progress, but then, I always will be until I'm freed from this flesh.
Remember - YOU JUST HAD A BABY. You are in difficult, challenging times. It will get easier. I know you know that, but just remember it!
Hang in there, keeping on keeping on, eyes on the mark, the prize. I wish I could pop over and help you out. I would if I could.
I, too, try to make a point of posting bad times on my blog. It's easy to paint a pretty picture. And it ain't always pretty!
Oh, and just so you know... when you don't put a title in a post the post doesn't show up in my RSS feed so I don't see it until you post another one with a title (unless I go to your site just to check).
Man, I really need to go to the South Sandwich Islands and hang out with you for a while!
Thanks Robyn for being so honest. I am glad to know I am not the only one that feels like this sometimes. Tim has been encouraging me to thrive not just survive... that has been helpful when I think about that through out my day.
Thanks for the encouragement Rita.
oh yes, i hear you loud and clear, sister. i don't know what to say except you are NOT alone, and His grace IS sufficient, even when we don't feel like it is!
I have tears welling up as I read your post, for the second time, and now read all the comments. Not only because I understand....I've had newborns and post-partum (which isn't limited to 2 weeks after birth) 5 times....but also because I am experiencing a lot of the same feelings and attitudes right now. Only this time I have no newborn as an excuse. Let's hang in there together. I often think of the verse...and take great comfort and hope in it...Isaiah 40:11. I may take it a bit out of context, but then again maybe not. It says, "He will feed his flock like a shepherd. He will carry the lambs in his arms, holding them close to his heart. He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young." I know my young are not so young as your young are at this point, but they are far from independent and there are many days when I am grateful beyond words for my Shepherd's kind, understanding heart and gentle leading of me. We are loved.
Looks like you have officially arrived at MOTHERHOOD! Love the eating boogies part!If you can sit back in 5 years and laugh at ia all it was worth it! My house looks like a Tornado every saturday and I get SO frustrated cuz I have the older kids now but hey people keep telling me that "The kids will be gone before yo know it" it's is true sad to say I have a 13 year old to prove it....steph nolt
way to be honest, robyn. i wish too that i could just stop by and help out. keep up your good work; you are doing an incredible job of mothering!
It's Sunday night and I'm just now getting to read your post. Thank you for you honesty! this is one of the main reasons I consider you one of my best friends.
I think I've experienced everything you wrote about. well, my kids haven't discovered boogies yet, but everything else! I NEVER thought I'd get as frustrated with kids and husband as I do. the beauty is that each morning is new and God's grace never runs out. I love the verses Iris shared.
Thanks for being real. You encourage me to not always try to paint a pretty picture.
P.S. Love the "thrive, not just survive" comment LaRonda!
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